A tipple of wine

So I went back to bed yesterday. Couldn't get connected with the healing energies of the Universe via reiki because the palpitations were overwhelming my ability to get connected. The only thing for it was to go to bed, and focus on getting some deeper healing into me by going to sleep. 

Still did not seem to work. But what did happen was that Lester joined me for a warm up, it being a very cold day, and we had a chat. It was a big chat. And it was decided that we are both under megga stress at the moment and need to offload some of that stress. And the most stressful things we do is working for other people, me with my readings, and Lester with his computer work for an office in the UK. But they are our main source of income. They are also work we do not need to be doing. Why? Because we have the opportunity to move forward with our farm and to make Labartere into a temporary stop over place for people who need healing, that is what is in our hearts, but we need to do some off loading, this is what we are finding hard to do.

It is easy to get stuck in a rut, especially when staying in that rut means an income will come in. And yet the walls of that rut can eventually become quite, quite, suffocating, so that staying in the rut becomes a major stressor. But still we stay enclosed in that rut, in the known ways of doing things, on the reliance on money, afraid to take up other opportunities which, on the face of it, may or may not provide the money to live. And so we eventually become ill, as our bodies start reacting to the mental pressures of living a life, and a lifestyle, which is not suitable for our true selves. 

And so Lester and I have reached this stage when the stressors are making us ill. He is having chest pains, and I am having palpitations. Time to sort things out. What are our stressors: the renovation of the house which is not a real stressor really, just needs our time. What about the farm, but that is in our hearts so, again, is not a real stressor because it gives us so much back. But the Universe brought us to this place, so why not ask the Universe what to do. Because the energies of the Universe have to stand back sometimes, so that we are brought to the point of having to make our own decisions. They are like the best of parents, helping when necessary, but standing back so that the child can continue to learn and grow. 

And so the Universe, I think, is standing back, waiting for us to take those decisions. And what are those decisions? For Lester to let go of his association with the UK company, which will mean letting go of his dependance on the income it provides. For me, to let go of giving readings for people, which always tires me, and never leaves me feeling as if I have done a good job of channelling advice and guidance from the Universe. (There are reasons why this is so, which I shall not go into here). 

And the solution: for Lester to give in his notice. For me, to say no to people who want readings. This would free up our time to work on the house and farm, so that we can feed us and those who hopefully will come and stay here. 

This is the outcome of our family pow wow yesterday. 

Will we follow through? Well I have already refused several requests for readings, and Lester has written, but not emailed, his notice. So we are on the way. 

But it might seem unkind of me to not want to help people by giving readings, but I can help people more by continuing to build a portfolio of books,meditation tapes and videos, because it will mean that people who want to self help will connect with me, and not those who want to know what their future holds without any thought at all of helping themselves to get the best for themselves. More than that, for a long time I have been feeling that the powers that be are wanting me to divert away from this type of work, but have kept on channelling through me anyway. "Nudging me" that was has just been said clairaudiently. "but not wanting to give you a strong direction yet, although we would have given you a definite 'stop' to the voice channelling if you were still continuing to do so by the end of this year." Bless them. 

Oh dear, I am off loading to you, aren't I! Anyway, after that pow wow we both felt that our load had lightened. I am confident that the Universe will provide whatever money we need to have, and that the way will continue to be shown. It has so far, and there is no reason to think that we shall be abandoned. The constancy of the Universe is something to have respect for, it is a rock solid constancy, never waivers, never diminishes. It is us human beings which doubt, and lack the constancy of trust, both towards each other and the Universe.

But the palpitations continued anyway, even after the healing sleep, and pow wow. I  plodded on through the day, and went out for a trip to the local wine brewers to get Lester his drop of wine. A sip of the new season's white wine....and the palpitations suddenly stopped! 

And so I must close off this blog entry. I trust that the Universe will continue to help and guide us, providing that I continue to listen to them. I shall miss reading for people, but only because it has made me feel connected to the energies of the Universe, but it has become a non-viable pathway now, so I wait with interest to see what the Universe comes up with next, because when one door closes another one will always open. Remember that. If you are also in a rut and want things to change, then expecting change to come along is foolish unless you realise that accepting the opportunity for change will take courage. Sink or swim? Of course you will swim, providing you keep listening to your inner voice through which the powers that be speak to you. 

I still feel a bit wobbly in self, but I am confident that I did receive deep body healing yesterday, and that within twenty four to forty eight hours I shall feel better. I have no palpitations, although feel tight across the throat and upper chest, so my upper heart energies are under change. During the self healing yesterday I did clairvoyantly see a sort of cracking effect on what looked like a sheet of glass, so I was being told to keep going and that those blocked energies will shift. 

Sending you peace and love this day, and thankyou for taking the time to read these words. 

Vx

A palpitating heart

I woke up with heart palpitations this morning. Not sure why this should be, other than that I am perhaps fretting about getting the links of the new update of Aspects of Self finished. It is an long task, requiring much patience from both myself and my eyes as I scroll up and down the pages, checking that all the links are correct. I sometimes wonder why I put myself through such efforts, but then it was my choice before I came into this earthly existence, so I really must not complain.

And perhaps my palpitation are because I did not balance myself before I went to sleep. I am finding that as I become ever more sensitive and attuned to the energies of the Universe, that my health topples over alarmingly fast when I do not pay attention to keeping in balance.

Now this is alright if one is a monk, or nun, or a hermit, or somesuch other type of person who can devote their days to meditation, solitude, and quietness, but I am a farmgirl living in an old house which is being renovated all about me, trying to keep a spiritual balance whilst my living conditions and lifestyle continually pull me this and that. To try and keep that balance between my higher self and lower self really is difficult for me. That is why I am having heart palpitations. It is my soul self housed in my heart centre, that is what is unhappy about this neglect. 

Message to self. Do try and be more patient with yourself. You can only be yourself. And you must make time, before you go to sleep, to make a connection with the energies of the Universe, so that the link between you and them can be a strong one and not a wobbly one, otherwise you will suffer. You will be tired, irritable, and not right in yourself. And most of all, you will not be able to write.

Vx

Surprise blessings

So I was in the middle of lots of busyness in the kitchen, back was aching (no time to reiki this although I should have), mood was dire (should have risen about my lower self mood but wasn't of a mind to because my lower self had captured my attention, pushing my higher self into the background. Oh this battle between higher and lower self. Everyone has it, and I am no exception although my higher self is the winner for long periods of time. It is just when I have lots of farm work to do, and tiredness starts overcoming me, that is when my unlovely lower self slips in and takes control, kicking any thoughts of giving myself healing out of the window for a while, until I can rest and recharge so that my higher self can get back in charge of me, which it always does eventually).

Anyway, as I say, I was up to my elbows in urgent kitchen work, when in walked Vincent and girlfriend, invited in by my husband, bless him. We had forgotten that they had asked to see him milking our cow. The visit was a nuisance. We were both tired. 

But we always put a smile on our faces for visitors, so I carried on with my work, chatting when necessary, but not often, because these two young people were French with not a word of English, and I am English with not many words of French, especially if my head is occupied elsewhere. So my husband kept the flow of conversation going because he can speak reasonable French, and I popped in the odd word here and there. 

Sat down, needing to grab a quick pause in my work ( I was preparing meat for the freezer) with nothing on my mind other than 'When can I go to bed'. There was no spiritual intent going on with me, and definitely no attunement on my part, if there had of been at that moment I would have channelled it into my tiredness to get me through the last couple of hours of the day, but I was still in my lower self mindset, so all I was doing was listening to the conversation, and hoping that the young couple would go soon.

And then the attunement switch suddenly clicked on. It was the Universe switching it on, not me. I had not asked for attunement, nor had I put up a request to come under attunement. Nevertheless, I had become switched on. 

And then a huge flow of warm energy opened up from the middle of me, (the stomach and heart chakras), and then it flooded all over me so that all the chakras became open, and then it flowed out towards the young couple, enveloping them both in a huge tidal wave of healing energy. I do not know why this happened, it just did. And then all the room became flooded with that powerful energy. Meanwhile the conversation in French continued, meanwhile I channelled the energies of the Universe. Not a word did I say, but then I never do when the Universe decides to switch me on and channel healing through me, because if I did start speaking then the flow of energy would stop because my thinking mind would switch off the attunement. Unless of course, the Universe wanted to speak to the people involved, in which case one of the psychic tools (clairaudience or clairvoyance or mediumship) would be woken up and the necessary words given. 

I just wanted to share with you that moment though, because it was such a surprise, when I was so tired and deep in my lower self mood, that the Universe still managed to bring me into attunement and channel their energies across to that young couple. It was a privilege to do so, and reminded me to try and keep up on my higher self, especially when tired. 

And I wish I could bring you into that moment as well, so that you could have also experienced the power of the moment. And it was nothing to do with me making a request of help for them, because I hadn't. 

There is a power beyond us, and it is a warm and mighty power, and it is greater than us, and wiser than us, and if we try and reduce this power into a human-ness,  then we both reduce and limit this power, but if we allow it to be what it is meant to be, and accept that we are never likely to understand just what exactly that power is, then that power will do all that it can to help us. 

The Universe gave this couple a surprise blessing. They left soon afterwards. I regularly send up a request to the Universe, that anyone who visits us (at Labartere, our farm in SW France) will receive help in whichever way they need it. I suppose that those young couple were picking up their portion of blessings when I became switched on during the cutting up of a table full of meat which was heading for the freezer. Such is the life of a psychic lady trundling along the pathway of her life!

Vx

Go on..... give yourself a smile!

When one is feeling miserable and the world feels like a very unfriendly place, look in the mirror and smile with yourself, not at yourself. Do not be critical of the way you look.... hair all over the place? Doesn't matter. Not happy with your shape? Doesn't matter. No one is perfect, and it is your inner light which is most important. Smiling switches on that inner light, and that, my friend, will then make you into an almost perfect person, because you will then radiate out a warm light to all who see it. So why not start with yourself. Look directly in your own eyes in the mirror. See through whatever you think you see there, like wrinkles and crinkles, look deep into your own eyes, then smile. Let this be a genuine smile, a false one will not work, and let your heart be then uplifted by the smile you give yourself. 

The Universe gave this to me early this morning to pass on to you, after I was woken up at three in the morning. This often happens, that I am woken up in the early hours of the day to write, probably because this is the only time of the day when I can have a couple of uninterrupted hours in which to work. 

I feel swamped by the amount of work there is to do. A few weeks ago the Universe started posting thoughts into my head about redeveloping Aspects of Self, particularly suggesting that the pages to be white. This I argued about, knowing that the work would be long, but also thinking that white pages would look bland for the reader. This has turned out not to be so. The Universe was right. AOS does look better. And I have been given new sections to add as well, this blog being one of them, although I do not know what it is I am supposed to be writing in them as yet. What I mean is, that I have been given the titles of these new sections but do not know what exactly the content is supposed to be.

So how do I know if it is me suggesting these new sections? Because AOS is big enough as it is, so I would have rather left it at it was. But when the Universe is in suggestion mode, then the suggestion that they post into my mind gets stuck there, so to get it unstuck I have to follow through with the suggestion, even if I don't quite know what I am supposed to be doing with it. If it was my thoughts which had come up with the suggestion / idea, then I would go into planning mode about what I needed to do. If it is an idea coming in from the Universe, then I can't plan because I won't know what it is I am supposed to be writing about until I start work on it. 

This blog is a perfect example of what I am talking about. The words 'Diary of a psychic lady' got stuck in my mind and would not be shifted. 'What would I write about', and 'I don't have time to take on another piece of writing', these were my responses to the Universe about starting this blog.

Anyway, yesterday I worked out the template for the blog, and this morning I have made this first post. It will be interesting to see what they inspire me to write about in the future. 

Sending blessings to you

Vx