Mega strops, and a man makes a surprise visit.

It has been twenty seven days since last I wrote. No excuse, other than that I have been busy getting Aspects of Self sorted out, which is no excuse really, but sometimes the effort of getting words out of my  head is hard work, or laziness, or feeling too stressed to concentrate for longer than a minute, or letting other things get in the way. But to be fair to myself, it has been a trial of a January, and I have found myself stretched from here to there and back again.

For instance, I had a mega strop yesterday about a neighbour who was being neglectful of her animals, and was expecting us to help her out so she could continue her minimal effort towards looking after them. Her attitude sent me into a frenzy of a temper. I was stressed out anyway, and she sort of drove me off the edge. Exasperated by her attitude, already stressed because of other things which were happening here, so in a high angst and in a most unladylike manner I shouted and hollered my frustrations into the air , which was completely opposite to what I should have done, which was to spend a few minutes asking the Universe to help her be a better person. I am ashamed to say that I completely forgot that I am supposed to be a healer, and absolutely fell out of the saddle in regards to channelling love and light to all.

So today I had to repair the damage which I thought I might have caused her, thinking that some of my stroppiness might have settled itself around her, which would make her even worse in herself than what she already is. But the words were given back to me, from the Universe, that I had not caused her any harm, for which I felt greatly relieved. So I did what I should have done, and channelled reiki for her soul, that her soul would be given the energy to conquer her lower self, so that she may start to live according to her higher self, and therefore find a better balance of self within herself. I felt better for doing this for her.

And yesterday I was reminded by a friend that the Universe does not give us any situation which we cannot cope with, after I had another strop (but only a little one) about the flooding which we are being subjected to by the very full up river which runs alongside our land. We had a spate of floods this time last year, and was told by locals that 'never in living memory' had the land been so flooded. And then, two days ago, up came the river again, and this time the flooding was worse than last year. It was hard not to question the Universe as to why they had brought us here. It was hard to stay upbeat about it all as we watched the water come closer and closer to the house. But we did not flood, and I did remember to thank the Universe for giving me this opportunity to stay strong and not panic. Actually, that is not quite right, because I did have a few wobbly moments as the river got closer and closer to the walls of the house.

Today someone came visiting. He must have been passed over, because in my head did he arrive. Not sure why he came. Only met him twice, and both times he was not particularly friendly. But I think he was 'doing the rounds', and settling old debts. I asked him why he was visiting, and he said that he had put a hex on me. Now that, to me, sounds not quite right, as all he did was stare at me when I met him, and not say too much, and what he did say was a little on the sarcastic side if I  remember rightly. And putting a hex on someone sounds like putting an actual spell on them, sort of. Oh, he has just said, "I didn't help you as much as I should have. I made it difficult for you to channel. I knew I was doing it, that is why I have come.... to say 'sorry'."
"So why was I told earlier on that you had put a hex on me?"
" Because I was in the dark with myself, and my attitude towards you slid a dark energy over to you."
"Do I still have that 'dark energy' with me?"
"Yes, it is tucked on to your left shoulder and creates a barrier between you and the Universe. Not all the time, though. Just when you are tired. I am sorry. I did not know what I was doing. I did that to a lot of people, and now that I am passed over I am 'doing the rounds' as you say, to tidy up what I have done. I am so sorry. The dark energy will leave you soon."
"What do I need to do?"
"Light a candle tonight, before you go to sleep. Go to bed early. Think of the candle as you go to sleep, think of yourself as being 'washed and clean' along the back of your shoulders, and I will do the rest. I go now. I do not visit again. Think of me with kindness, if you can."

Crikey! And all I thought I was going to do was write a blog about getting stroppy with a neighbour!

Anyway, bye for now. I need to go away and think about what the man has said. I didn't ask for a name because I was too busy writing down what he was saying to me, but I do now remember him quite clearly. This was years ago, when I was in my late thirties, and just starting to develop mediumship. I was a trainee speaker at a Christian Spiritualist Church meeting in Maidstone, Kent, England, and I do remember him staring at me in a fixed way when I was trying to channel, and I remember how I kept losing the channelling link, but put this down to my inexperience. I only spoke at two meetings. I think my way of channelling for the meetings was not quite what the organisers of the church expected. I found this a lot with the Christian Spiritualist movement. That what was expected from the speaker was not what came from me. I was too different, and made the hard core of  the church organisers fidgety.

But I must close, otherwise I will tire you out!

Bye for now,

In love and light

Vx

UPDATE: Did as was given to me, candle lit, visualized my shoulders being washed. As with a lot of psychic experiences I have, I was mildly sceptical as to what was going on, which is usual for me. So I did not really expect this 'dark energy' to be removed, but as I say, I followed what was given to me by the man, but did not really expect anything to happen.

I slept heavily. Woke up with a drifting and lethargic state of mind. But what was most interesting was that there was a big cross of bandaid across the back of my left shoulder, and that the area beneath the cross felt very sensitive. I put my thoughts out to the man, but all I saw was his back as he walked away from me. And then a door closed behind him.

So I presume that there was a dark energy, that it was giving me problems, that I had carried the dark energy for lots of years, and that it was now gone. It will be interesting to discover just how that is going to alter my energies. But first, from previous experiences I have had from any  healing work which is done on me, I shall go through a few days of feeling not myself, like I would if I had been to a doctor and had surgery done on me, only it will not be physical discomfort, but psychic discomfort, which is very difficult to explain, but it is a soreness in the energies of my body, which does not give actual pain, but feels like toothache in my senses. It is the most weirdest of feelings to have, and equally as uncomfortable as actual pain.

Vx

Music in my head

It has been a trying few days, when I have sort of fallen out of the saddle in regards to my direction in life, my destiny. It is easy to do when life gets busy and not enough attention is paid to keeping in balance with the Universe. Oh the Universe stays where it is, but it is I who wander away from the links, letting my head start ruling the hours of the day, with its lower self demands. In the end I feel low in health and low in spirits. This is when I start floundering.

About nine days ago I was out in the far field. It was a lovely morning and I was scything grass to give to our Tamworth pigs for their breakfast. Often I stop to enjoy the morning, which I often do no matter what the weather is doing, sometimes to catch my breath, sometimes to watch our dogs romping, sometimes to sharpen the scythe, sometimes to just stop and look.

So while I was having a 'stop and look' moment, quite clearly in to my head I heard the Rodesky march. It was the Universe pressing my doorbell, asking me to pay attention to them. Playing music clairaudiently to us is a good way for the Universe to get our attention, but it is not normally tunes we would be familiar with, or would have heard recently, and the Rodesky march was definitely not a tune I had heard since I don't know when. So I stopped what I was doing, and stood, and went into the music. It did not play for long, just a second or two, but long enough for the Universe to post in clairvoyantly the 'seeing' of  double doors opening and a long red carpet stretching into the distance. Keep going, that is what the Universe was trying to tell me.

But I was still in balance, so I thanked them, and carried on with the day. Ah, but the Universe could see that I was heading into a 'down time', because a day or so later in came the tune to Shanandoah, and with it the words, 'Keep going'. A day or two later, and down I crashed, taking a tumble  from my higher self pathway, which left be dwelling in the world of my lower self, which is not a nice place to be, especially when I have spent the last three months updating Aspects of Self (my psychic website), and am just about ready to upload the new edits on to the Internet. But for some reason, I feel afraid of doing this, my lower self busy telling me that I can't do it, that no one is going to read it, that it is a waste of time, and so why don't I stop messing about with all this mountain of work which is needing to be done if we are going to open as a rest and recovery centre for people this year, and no, the books will never sell, the pendulums and crystals will not sell either, and Lester and I will have to go find other jobs to fund Labartere, which is then going to stop Labartere from being a source of connection between the Universe and us human beings, which is not why we were given the inspiration to come to France in the first place, and if I don't carry on, then all the efforts so far would have been a waste of time.

The Universe smiles at me as if I am a spirited child, and stands patiently beside me, knowing that sooner or later, when I start having chest pains, headaches, and despondency, that I shall remember those tunes they played me a few days ago, especially the 'seeing' of the red carpet stretching ahead of me, so I can find my way back to my destiny pathway, so that they can start working with me again, because this is what needs to happen if Labartere is to become what it could become. But it will take me a day or two to get back in sync with the Universe, but writing these words to you is a start.

If you 'hear' a few bars of music played in your mind when you are least expecting it, then pay attention as well. It is the Universe playing your doorbell, and by standing and listening to the music, then you will receive either a few words clairaudiently, or a clairvoyant picture. Take notice. It will help you keep on your higher self pathway, and stop that oh so strong lower self of yours from interfering.

Vx